i feel so alone lately but i kinda like the solitude

i feel like if people knew a certain part of me they wouldnt want to be my friend anymore

lul that sounds so stupid but its true

im such an asshole lately

^____^

i wish i could talk to finn

i seriously need someone to talk to..

whos not gonna judge me

well i hope he wouldnt judge me

everyone is so normal

eewww normal people

normal people who are innocent and oblivious

to me

i need to have a shower but i cant be fucked

i had a nap at like 6pm today and woke up at 11:30pm

my sleeping is now fucked

its now 1:04am how am i going to get to sleep this is ridiculous

i wish my dad would actually contact me..

i feel like he doesnt love me

he hasnt contacted me since my birthday (march)

and all he did was send me an e-card

yet he talks to my brother just fine.. i dont get it

im sorry i cant be like my brother

????

i dont wanna go to school tomorrow

hurry up holidays..

i have to do a speech fuck

ANXIETY ANXIETY ANXIETY

here is a new painting, its a self portrait we had to do for art class

the symbol above his head is jupiter, my favorite planet (idk why i just like it)

and the text down the bottom reads

"I'm afraid that when you look into my eyes you'll see there's nothing inside me"

(some of you may be familiar with this quote ehe)

sorry if the japanese is wrong, which im 99.9% sure it is

hurrr we have this thing at school tomrrow

and i really dont wanna go so im not going

i feel like im falling back into my "darker" self.. gurrrr

therez many parts of andy

andy cant help how he feels about certain things

ugh i feel so lame even typing shit like this

im staying up way later than usual

andy isnt friendly lately

he does not think about friendly activities

basically

btw ^ in that photo i am wearing the skin79 bb cream

its reallyyyy good, i put powder over it though (it really doesnt need it)

so im just gonna wear it without powder 

but yurr it just makes my face look better

so its good.. yes ..

i will be updating with more art shortly (a self portrait)

we had to do a self portrait for art class and yeah

i want u

new painting 

"alien fish"

mr fish visits space in andys dreams

he is unsure of what to think

watercolorz-pencil-datz it

new very small, quick painting btw

"andy has odd dreamz"

because lately he has been having ridiculous dreams.

lastnight i had a dream i was covered with maggots and i had to pull them out of my skin

what the fuck is wrong with my brain

when it is night time

and i am driving away in the car somewhere

the window is open and i feel the breeze

on my skin

and it reminds me of you so much

i look outside into the dark nothing

with the little unknown lights shimmering

i know you are out there somewhere

and i long to be with you

so much

i bought some stuff recently, sorry i do not post on here very often.. im just lazy and cannot think

here are some things..

vintage moondreamers figure (roary the lion)

he is 2 cute and i couldnt resist it okay

burgandy creepers (they are a rip-off, not the real thing)

because the real brand does not carry this color, and this is the shade i wanted

skin79 bb cream.. i have never tried a bb cream before and have heard good things about this brand so im excited to try it out (i might make a review of it when it arrives)

this fucking hat holy shit this hat was literally made for andy <33

this bunny hood thingy.. soo coot, i will remove the eyes though because i think it will look better without

celeste stein "first kiss" angel tights.. i was lucky enough to buy these as soon as they restocked because they sell out literally in hours ;___;